I miss my sister!

I sit here with tears rolling down my face. I cannot stop crying. I miss my sister so much. I want her here near me so bad. She is my best friend, the one I can tell anything too and she will not be mad and she will not think different and she will always love me the same. I just want to snuggle up in her comfy bed and talk and laugh and cry.

Do you ever just start to cry and don't know why? I am right now. I think though that everything in life is just building up and I have no one to tell it all too.

It is so hard to talk to someone over the phone and express how you really feel and them actually understand. You really just need to be face to face. Katie is the one person that I can talk to and tell her anything without thinking twice before a single word comes out of my mouth. Have a mentioned that I miss her. I miss the late night run-away-from-home drop-ins she would make. I miss her randomly coming by after school to see me and Emilie. I miss staying the night with her and talking forever when we should really have been catching up on much needed sleep. I miss being able to borrow eachothers clothes. I miss having someone to mentor and having her call me and come over and cry to me for advice. I miss my little sister... I miss my best friend.

Noone could ever replace the friend I have in her. I know the friendship is still their and I know that we will always be sisters. And I know that I must let her go and grow up and do her own thing and not worry about her. I know I must be strong so that I do not drag her down or hold her back from accomplishing her dreams. But... I don't know...

I feel like there are so many things that we should have done before she left for college. I feel like we should have hung out so much more and then maybe this would be easier for David to understand and easier for me to deal with... But I cannot dwell on the past and what was not done. I just really wish that she was here.

I MISS MY SISTER, MY BEST FRIEND!!!

I am aware that the above is all probably a bunch of jumble and totally out of nowhere but it is all straight from my heart. I miss you terribly Katie!