Somethings not right...

Everyone please keep my Mamaw in your prayers. I went to see her today before she left with her sister to spend some time in Wichita Falls. She has been battling colon cancer since March of 2006. She has a permanent ostomy bag. It is all really a long story so to make it semi short, this is not her kind of life. She is a retired nurse and does not believe in doctors! I know... confusing! Anyhow, three weeks ago she had a wreck and totaled her car. She says that she simply fell asleep behind the wheel. But when I went to see her today I have been led to believe that she is struggling neurologically. Her response time to simple questions is extremely delayed. She could not get her right foot to go into her shoe. I mean like her mind would not tell her foot to lift off of the ground and set into the shoe. So... very simple everyday things she is seriously struggling with. This is a lady who at 75 years old and starting two months after having her ostomy placed went on two ski trips, a two week vacation to hawaii and an alaskan cruise!!! She is normally very independent and is now having a hard time asking for help. I am very afraid that her cancer may have spread to her brain due to the symptoms she is having and she refuses to see another doctor. So please just keep her in your prayers. She claims to be saved and will talk all day with you about Jesus dying on the cross to save us from our sins, but she also talks about the other side and reincarnation. She is very new age. She was raised in Hawaii so this is her culture... I don't know, I am just really confused! I need prayer as well as her. Please just lift us up! Thank yall so much.

First Day of School...

Sorry for the delay in this post! I am so excited to announce though that Emilie attended her very first day of school yesterday. September 2, 2008 a day I will NEVER forget. My sweet little angel walked through the halls of Sonshine School like she had been there a million times. When we got out of the car she told me that her weenie dogs (pigs in a blanket) had made her tummy full. When we got out of the car she insisted on pulling her rolling piglet backpack herself. With sippy cup in one hand and little piggy backpack handle in the other and her new little pink Nike's on she set off towards the door of Preschool. With tears in my eyes I asked her to turn around so that I could take a picture of my big little girl.;)

I had been dreading this day for quite sometime but at the same exact time I have been looking forward to it. I have dreaded the thought of me not being a full-time stay at home mother of my only little baby. My friends I think this might mean that she is growing up. I will not let her grow much more... I don't think I can handle it. I love her more than words could ever tell. We have such a crazy, beautiful time together. Ok, so I got a little off track. Anyhow, when we were walking down the hall she just walked right into the very first room she came to. I had to nicely tell her "sweetheart that isn't your classroom, but your's is right down here." When we got to her class we put her little backpack by her name on the wall and then walked in her door where her sweet teachers Ms. Kristi and Ms. Diana were there to meet her. She was never even afraid. I was in total shock. If anyone knows Emilie at the very least, you know that she is NOT a people person! You know how I mentioned earlier that I had been dreading this day, I have been for another reason being that I figured she would not handle the seperation well. After all she is at the seperation anxiety stage of Erikson. She had most definitely accomplished this stage. She did OUTSTANDING at school. I told her goodbye and kissed her on her cheek and she didn't even acknowledge me. She was so interested in what everyone else was doing. Emilie went to her table and pulled her little chair out and sat down and started eating her cheerios and I moseyed out the door. I did not immediately leave though, I did stand outside the door and listen to make sure she didn't start to cry and then I poked my head in the door and took a little snapshot.

I am not gonna lie... I had a smile on my face that stretched from ear to ear when I walked out of her classroom. I was so proud of my little girl who normally does not like people. She was so big for mommy! She made me VERY proud. Kids all around her were crying and she was happy as a little lark.

I felt kinda bad at the same time that I was smiling. I think I really just felt guilty for smiling. I have always dreamed that I would leave the classroom sobbing on my little girls first day of school. After all, shouldn't all parents cry that leave their kids for the first time??? She has never really been left for an extended amount of time. Her Gami and Papa picked her up from school at the end of the day. She received a great report. Her little note said that she did outstanding. She took a nap all by herself on her nap mat and she ate all her lunch.

What could possibly make a mother any more proud!? Have I mentioned that I love my little girl to the moon and back times infinity and beyond?!? I DO!

Now, I feel that it would be wrong to not tell yall about the one downfall that Emilie had on her first day of school. She failed to tee-tee in the potty. As all of you know Emilie has been potty trained since she was 18 months old. But she has NEVER been one to go to the bathroom with outsiders. She likes to go mostly alone and occasionally she will want her mommy or Gami in there with her. So I really anticipated this happening at school and I am sure it will probably continue until she gets use to her teachers. Hopefully that will happen soon. I will keep you posted... Just stay on me about it... as you all know life is hectic!

Emilie Update!

I have not sent any pictures of Emilie out since her 2nd birthday! What a terrible mother I am... I know. I just worked on a little something that I will be sending out soon! I sure hope you all enjoy! (see below)Surely I will have another update on Emilie out by Thanksgiving and then will come the Christmas Cards! Wahooo! Those are my favorite to design!

P.S. My sister is coming home in exactly 19 days! YAY!!!